Friday, 21 January 2011
However, seriously, despite all this difficult papers looming near, i m not at all worried,nervous, or agitated like i m used to be. What the heck!
is it because i m prepared to face the exams? or is it because i m too worried to an extend where my mind has succumb itself without a fight? haish orrrrr Is it because i m too excited with my Europe trip which causes me to lose my focus??? owh my..
THIS IS VERRYYY DANGEROUS!
Phong!!!! focus man!
m doing well this coming exam....
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
I have just finished my experiment lab presentation today..
haish.. i was never good in talking in front of people(s), especially a group of people or worst in front of the WHOLE CLASS...bt that is not the case.
Today it was in front of my lab mates n the SENSEI..scary..nervous and i kinda screw it up!
this are my mistakes;
1st- I read the script i had prepared entirely which i shouldn't have.
2nd- No eye contact with my peers
3rd-I was crapping in JAPANESE!!!!
4th-And....... i didnt explain the last n most important part which is the conclusion part! I SKIP THAT! (i was to concern about the time limit n i just snap when time is up)
Apenak buat susu dah bertaburan..(dont cry over spilled milk say the old people)... hehe
As soon as i finish presenting i felt lighter....freeeeeeeee frm all the fear n worries.i just felt like this burden had been lift from both my muscular shouders(prasan ja)...
but NOTE that EXAMs r yet to start!( TT)'
Tuesday, 11 January 2011
wah it has been quite some time since my last post! I barely remember when i last wrote. Hurm...bt one thing for sure, i hve wanted to post about my experience about going to LADY GAGA's MOnster Ball Tour Concert..bt heheh.. due to my procrastinating habits... blar2....
Now supposely i need to finish up my presentation for tomorrow! omg i need to present about this lab experiment on Control System which seriously i have no idea what that is all about! huhuhu...so now feelling about down rather than nervous..at time like this, all those sweet memories kept on coming and made me missing every those sweet moments leaving me feeling homesick lar..ape lar...macm2 lar...haish....
B strong lar weh...kate anak jantan! hahah
ok r nak smbung keje jap...
Thursday, 15 April 2010
Just dance, gonna be okay
Da da doo doot-n
Just dance, spin that record babe
Da da doo doot-n
Just dance, gonna be okay
D-D-D-Dance, dance, dance, just
Stop callin, stop callin,
I don't wanna think anymore!
I left my head and my heart on the dance floor.
Stop callin, stop callin,
I don't wanna talk anymore!
I left my head and my heart on the dance floor……
I m sure some of you are familiar with this lines…its LADY GAGA’s famous Just Dance and Telephone lyric….. n she is in TOKYO!!!!
Lady Gaga spotted in NARITA airport Tokyo on Tuesday...on her beg Hermes Birkin beg (around USD5000) is a message for her fans, that said 'I love small Monster, Tokyo love' in Japanese alphabet Katagana.
Me n my friends are going to Lady Gaga the Monster Ball Tour concert on this coming Saturday!!! (although the ticket really burn not one but holes in my jeans)
For what it is worth, this will gonna b my 1st time attending a concert, a real big huge concert by an international ARTIST…btw we r talking about GAGA…a very talented lady..gaga…..m I m her big fan…not too obsess but yet I love her disco pop songs..they really know how to make me move my BODY!
I just cant wait! Like now the only thing in my mind is LADY GAGA songs n all about her upcoming concert…in my mind, are mostly about the outfit I m going to put on…(seriously I m so in trouble for neglecting my studies..…Lucky I hv just start my new semester; x to worry ) BTW,this kinda worried my sister n some of my closes friends… The comments are all over my post.. They r aware of my academic situation are r concern of me. …note for u all -I appreciate ur concern, don’t worry, this will end by this Saturday nite…
I just wanna dress into something loud,outlandish, flamboyant fit for her concert like those of House of Lady Gaga….but of course its must b a male version one ..i don’t want to dress up like a drag queen..(oh no!!!)….to bad i m running out of time n source as the concert will be in 2 days time,frustrating!!! Should have prepared earlier..…
Actually love designing costume. During my juniorhigh school, I did design the props for my drama team as well..and I feel that the work of creativity is so much FUN!! Even.I have had a dream of celebrating Haloween but at home, we don’t really hve the chance to do so...
Maybe I m gonna to get smtg simple yet weird, out of the MAN world weird..
YOU B THE JUDGE ..haha..
LOOKS like i m gonna dress for an early Halloween…I guess… wish me luck!
Thursday, 8 April 2010
even if the sky is falling in
Damn, this feeling has resurfaces again after my tedious work of suppressing it.And to my dismay, this one piece of intense feel-not-good part of feeling just reemerge to overtake me.. agian like it always do..
After days of feeling good about myself n contented of my being ,a simple question from that someone has robbed it all...that is an enquiry bout my last sem's result.
The moment he had asked it it felt like cold wind being blowed into my skull,leaving a void space, that later being filled with dismay n despondent.
Its heavy now..my head .I m feeling like submerging myself in the dept of the deepest ocean , hiding myself from the present of my peers..I m ashame!!! Coz The fact that my last sem!s result which is not a thing to be proud of,more to be ashamed of, has somehow striped my ego(men hv strong ego u know)..huhu
Thus the feeling of down arises...which in my case could be define as the feeling of regret.upset,and shame.. those things that had been hunting me since EVER!!
To me, it is so depressing when it come to be defeated in academic coz now my only concerned as a sponsored student is studies!! I m defeated by my peers n my own expectation.. even though i dont really have high expectation of myself(not that I m lack of confidence) bt I m trying ot be realistif of my own ability..
Btw the main thing now is the damn feeling...DOWN! Everytime I flung in exams due to my carelessness..or realized that I mindlessly hurt someone,or if someone said smtg hurtful, or i missed someone badly , instantly my happy-go-luck mode be swith off into dark gloomy siri mode!!!
And the worst part it..it seems to turn on the I-MISS-EVERYONE mode as well!.. this is the time I would reminisce all the good times i had wif my old pals or of someone I used to loved.....bt all the time, I would be missing home!!
An hour ago,thanks to that someone who loves butting in wif the question i dislike most...'how was ur grade???'...now I m so in so much pain! I m emotionaly suffering... :(:(:(:(
BUT one thing I learned from the teaching of the great man , the Buddha is that, feeling do constatntly flunctuate,n it is impermanent ...its u, as the comander of the ship , to hve the ultimate power to meneuver it safely or to let it drift into darkness....
BUZZ!!! someone jez buzz me on my YM...n its AzT....a friend of mine(jez knew)...the doomes-day feeling has transformed into a bringht-spring daylight!
I m thrilled!! :):):) ....c feeling does change...
I m so into chatting now....bye2...XOXO :p
Friday, 2 April 2010
I can almost feel you, your nearly here
Disappear, disappear, disappear
Disappear, disappear, disappear'
It kept on trigger my subconscious mind to remind me
of someone i used to love thinking of...
plus the lyric kinda fit my situation right now...
HOney B's latest album 'I m sasha fierce'
since i got to know this bunch of friends of a bff of mine..know what??
During the whole time lepaking at their appartment,
they played B's songs at full blast over n over non stop...
the concequences....as above..
These new friends of mine r cool ~~kowt??~~~
Their personality r flamboyant n natural ~hypocrite at times~~.
Plus they dont mind what others think bout them.
(They can be very noisy,i mean BIG time noisy!!)
They enjoy curses n being cursing n
making fun of each other in an acceptable manner....
they r hilarious like a good comedian,
always sending me laughing for hours..
I do really enjoyed hangout with this
bunch of people n dearly missing them
That is the moment when i m myself(myb)....
i need not pretend to be an invidual i know little of..
a person who to the eyse of others a normal lame person...
n poyo as well..hahah..also..
i enjoy laughing alot!
Even the shortest words they uttered would tickle me sending me
laughing through out the night...
even the thought of their saying or statement
would send me giggle non stop...
My fav was their joke using the L alphabet..
coz it spell out a lot of funny words..bt mostly in BM..
n they would tease one another using it!
So thank A,B,I,C,N,T,Z for making my Spring Holidays
the best ever n despite we just knowing each other,
u guys accept me as one of u guys..
THANKS .. hope we would meet again one day..
most probably this Summer..hehe
ps;even if T says no,I will pecah msuk umah uolz gak!
Wednesday, 31 March 2010
I m gonna b 21 this year. Each and every part of my body has been living n developing for the past 21 years already!!!!.huhu...if u think deeply,i mean deelpy n stop taking things for granted, into this statement, u will realized (in my part-i do) that for this pass years, my lungs, liver, heart, kidney,brain etc..has been living n working for 21 years...wa..have i do any effort to work hard in 21years straight?? never (bt its not the matter here)
Besides, do u realized How fast time passed.... Actually,i could still remember how i celebrated my 2008 new year, my trip back to Malaysia during Spring 2009 n my lovely trip with my gfs to Korea in August..these memories is still so vivid like i had it last month!!
Now its April....4 months into year 2010..so on the 2nd thought, its kinda late to wish Happy New Year though...hihi ;p
so the point of the story??
crapping NON! haha ;p