Feelings...

hahaha...it has been a long,long time since i last posted(the same sentence i used when ever i start writting after my leave form blogging) its so like my signiture...haha..em..

Its kinda weird though....i mean the couple of hours ago i was having the mixture feeling of excitement, emotional and feeling of unsecure.. after watching GOSSIP GIRL. I just get excited and elated after indulging in the scandalous life of the Manhatten elite..haha...cant explain why but i just did

Then after watching an episode, all of the sudden my lappy Miss Toshiba, gonne insane..huhu....lagging as if she is already 60!!! Again i was thrown into the world of frustration like always in 80 minutes ago.... who dont..while u r enjoying chatting n surfing the net,then without any plausible reason, ur lappy go gaga!!! huh..

Thank God i was optimistic and i was comforting myself saying 'Phong the lappy is just teaching u how to be a patient man...plus u r 20 n save the drama.. u should act like a grown up man...just be patience..'. From agitated i became calmed...

So, i returned to my study table to start my 2000 kanji Japanes report on Hybrid Car...Unfortunately, i was unable to concentrate, cant think of anything but i started fantasizing (the word is too strong i think) n was in deep though about someone i wish to be with which is not worth telling.(nothing vulgar or dirty k..) Just missing someone....n i was in a deep longing for that someone... so i end up sitting infornt of my lappy again, hoping that someone might be able to fill in the void of my feeling....huh sad n loneliness always dwell in me live about 30 minutes earlier...huhu

N then, out of the blue, my best friend from my highschool buzz me on YM. He is doing medic in Manipal,India- n they r damn buzy, forever engaging in their studies.....the last time i every contacted him was early this year n some 'hey' n 'hai dude' in facebook,that all... then he asked for my Japan phone number n n i just type it on YM...soon i got a call.. its him!! At this moment i was overwhelmed...but the 1st thing i said after hello was 'oit mahal2 dowh, just chat on YM'..hahaha...

Thrilled to get to chat with someone today,what more with a lost best friend ....during this moment which is bout 20 minutes ago, i was damn excited, thrilled n yearning to be back with my geng..

So cant u see that, my feeling fluctuate irregularly... it keep on changing even in a second...in a minute u r happy n in another minute u r grumpy,sad, and n start to miss someone...then again it just gets excited and it goes in a circle.. luckly its not anyhing like broken heart,depression or misery which might lead to sucide...

This feeling is all the work of our powerful mind...actually i m not good n i cant go detail into this topic.. the mechanism of human mind..but what i can share is that...we are the authority of our own mind thus we can control our own feelings ....so dont ever let ur feeling overpower you,uncontrolled feeling is be hazardous.