Tuesday 15 December 2009

Life of S and B...

What a drama I would say after watching Gossip Girl....i m not a big of drama and series...although i used to be a one of Latin soap drama and Japanese short series and i just started wtching GG so i m not an expert in criticizing dramas....

I dont get this stuff happened around Serena and Blair in Gossip Girl....its too complicated. Its always about tense love triangle thingy ,twisting relationship.. and a bit of scheming and plotting to top others and some dramatic tention and scene happening around B and S..

A life like that would be tiring with all the constant changes of feelings and emotions... 1st Nate who dated Blair for quite sometime, then broke up and try to pursue Serena,then was rejected, and he started dating Vanessa, then breaks up again n hooked up with Jenny then again with Vanessa. At the same time, Blair fell in love with Chuck (after having sex in Nate's limo), and they didnt get together, then broke up, got together..then Blair gets together with NAte again..Serena would date Dan then broke up then couple with another guy named Aeron then breaks n gets back with Dan then break up......continuous 'get to gether and break up' scene.......want to know the detail, do watch GG....


With all the breaking and get together thing is exciting but emotional tiring...this kind of dramatic life is just crazy. .....if that are to compare to mine, B and S's are too bizarre...i mean my life is just simple...study,uni and homework and those are the things i concerned most.. (not fogetting family and friends...they are always the top of my passion). Not that i m in love or i m in dire personal crisis...but it doeant means that my life is a plian broing one...maybe sometimes..huhu

But Serena and Blair..Their's are just different,too complex....

Its just a drama but yet, i m sure in reality there are those who share the resemblance as S and B's. I would be neither be amazed nor envied but yet i pity them sometimes..its involve too much feelings of enjoyment,love and despair entwine together at the same time.

But at the end of the day I would say to myself...'Its just a fictional drama,so dont get over excited'...

Sunday 13 December 2009

Feelings...

hahaha...it has been a long,long time since i last posted(the same sentence i used when ever i start writting after my leave form blogging) its so like my signiture...haha..em..

Its kinda weird though....i mean the couple of hours ago i was having the mixture feeling of excitement, emotional and feeling of unsecure.. after watching GOSSIP GIRL. I just get excited and elated after indulging in the scandalous life of the Manhatten elite..haha...cant explain why but i just did

Then after watching an episode, all of the sudden my lappy Miss Toshiba, gonne insane..huhu....lagging as if she is already 60!!! Again i was thrown into the world of frustration like always in 80 minutes ago.... who dont..while u r enjoying chatting n surfing the net,then without any plausible reason, ur lappy go gaga!!! huh..

Thank God i was optimistic and i was comforting myself saying 'Phong the lappy is just teaching u how to be a patient man...plus u r 20 n save the drama.. u should act like a grown up man...just be patience..'. From agitated i became calmed...

So, i returned to my study table to start my 2000 kanji Japanes report on Hybrid Car...Unfortunately, i was unable to concentrate, cant think of anything but i started fantasizing (the word is too strong i think) n was in deep though about someone i wish to be with which is not worth telling.(nothing vulgar or dirty k..) Just missing someone....n i was in a deep longing for that someone... so i end up sitting infornt of my lappy again, hoping that someone might be able to fill in the void of my feeling....huh sad n loneliness always dwell in me live about 30 minutes earlier...huhu

N then, out of the blue, my best friend from my highschool buzz me on YM. He is doing medic in Manipal,India- n they r damn buzy, forever engaging in their studies.....the last time i every contacted him was early this year n some 'hey' n 'hai dude' in facebook,that all... then he asked for my Japan phone number n n i just type it on YM...soon i got a call.. its him!! At this moment i was overwhelmed...but the 1st thing i said after hello was 'oit mahal2 dowh, just chat on YM'..hahaha...

Thrilled to get to chat with someone today,what more with a lost best friend ....during this moment which is bout 20 minutes ago, i was damn excited, thrilled n yearning to be back with my geng..

So cant u see that, my feeling fluctuate irregularly... it keep on changing even in a second...in a minute u r happy n in another minute u r grumpy,sad, and n start to miss someone...then again it just gets excited and it goes in a circle.. luckly its not anyhing like broken heart,depression or misery which might lead to sucide...

This feeling is all the work of our powerful mind...actually i m not good n i cant go detail into this topic.. the mechanism of human mind..but what i can share is that...we are the authority of our own mind thus we can control our own feelings ....so dont ever let ur feeling overpower you,uncontrolled feeling is be hazardous.